Hello and goodbye.

Its been so long since I came back here. Just scrolled through all the previous post and realized how much I'd grown over the past few years. I'm glad I stepped out of the negativity life and living my life to the fullest now. I'm happily married, with my bike license and having a full-time job. Time flies, don't you think so? In a blink of an eye, I'm now 23. Long gone the naive 18 years old me living in agony waiting for a miracle to happen. I did not get my desired job, so what? I am happy. I no longer live a life where I had to please the people around me, I no longer give a shit to people who don't put in an effort. I cherish the people who cherish me too, and that's the priority right now. 

Nobody let me down. 

I let myself down. 

To you, my love.

First of all, happy three months to us. 

Heaven.

Its been long since I'm back blogging. Finally I have some time alone, so I guess its time to update here for a bit. Recently I have been cutting a lot of people out of my life, those who didn't make an effort to stay or make an effort to meet me no matter how many times I asked them out. I realised I don't need all these people after all. I guess I've reached the point where my social circle cut down to less than 20, or not even more than 15.

Many things happened recently till I don't really know where to start. If you're wondering whats wrong with me that led me here, nothing's wrong. I'm just pretty busy and occupied with work and my boyfriend.

So if you haven't seen, we went for our first overseas trip together to Malaysia and here's the travel log I've done. Please watch, I put in alot of effort in making the video HAHA.

Pretty happy nowadays, just cannot wait for better days to come! Can't wait to put braces!

Sense.

You know there will always be a time where reality hits you, where you just feel you aren't good enough for anything or for anyone. When you saw better looking women out there and their appearances just hit you and brings your esteem to the bottom. I hate feeling this way. I know I should be contented with myself and the people around me but what can I do when I just feel good about my own body? I am trying and trying but I seriously don't know what to do at this point, its like all that I had been doing isn't going anyway and this really upsets me.

People just don't understand the whole situation until something bad happens. 

People only start to care when you are halfway out of working things out. 

People only start to question when your eyes are overwhelmed with tears.

People only start to care when it is too late. 

I am a human being. I am not confident of myself yet. I am still working my way towards contentment. I have feelings too, I feel changes and when something is not right I will try my best to correct it even if it means me letting go of something, even if it means I have to stop doing something, even if it means it will upset me, for a long period. 

I am a human, not a robot, not a mind reader. I won't know things if you do not tell me, I am not a perfectionist, I am not perfect, I made mistakes and I fall. This is who I am, I am flawed and I have imperfections all around.But I am trying, I am trying my best to give you what you deserve.

I know truth hurts, but it's the only way we can learn and work towards our success, right? I won't give up easily. I won't.